1/3 Life Crisis

So.... ever since my husband turned 30 a couple weeks ago, he seems to have grown exceedingly impatient with the whole ttc journey.  He has asked me at least twice this week when we are going to do IVF.  I am actually surprised that he is saying this and not me, as I would have never thought that I would make it this long without saying "Screw baby steps, bring on the IVF!".

I must admit that I'm feeling a little impatient myself, but after learning more about what the IVF process entails physically on my part, I am a little more willing to proceed with baby steps, in hopes that it won't be necessary after all!  I don't think he quite understands what it entails physically for me, as all he has to do is provide some swimmers in a cup!  I mean seriously, I have a hard enough time with the one HCG shot for IUI's! I absolutely cannot imagine giving myself 2-3 shots a day for up to two weeks! Not to mention the whole egg retrieval process. And of course, we can't forget about the price tag! And then, what if after everything, it doesn't work??

In all honesty, after this next month of acupuncture and herbs, I think we will do one more IUI, and if it doesn't work, I'm pretty sure we will end up doing IVF.

Aunt Flo

Did you guess? Yup Dear Aunt Flo is here! I'm sure she's quite confused as to what she has been doing wrong for the past two years to cause me such distress when she shows up. "But I used to bring you such peace of mind" I can hear her say. Oh Aunt Flo, I know it's hard to understand, but I think we need some time apart.... Perhaps you can go visit some 16 year old for about 9 months... what do you think?

Anyway, I have another acupuncture appointment tomorrow, and I need to make an appointment for a baseline ultrasound, just to make sure everything is all clear.  I do think that we're going to hold off on the IUI's for another month, and make it a full three months of just acupuncture and herbs for the hubby and I.

Also, I guess I need something new to aspire to- I am now hoping for a baby by the time I'm 31, as obviously the whole 30 thing didn't work out... Thanks a lot Aunt Flo!

The Big 30

Well, it's official, I'm not in my twenties anymore! Yup, I turned the big 30 yesterday.  It's a pretty weird feeling, because 30 has always seemed so far away.  How can I be 30 and still feel like a kid?

Anyway, last month I was trying to be optimistic that I would be granted my biggest wish- to be pregnant by the time I turned 30... Am I pregnant you ask? Well, I don't know! I should be getting my period like NOW if I'm not.

I went to the acupuncturist this week, and he thought that my BBT chart looked like I could be pregnant.  Exiting, yes, but after two years of trying,  I knew better than to get my hopes up.  He told me to take a pregnancy test in about 3 days if I hadn't gotten my period. Today would be day 3. Have I gotten my period? No. Am I taking a test? No. I really can't start off my first day as a 30 year old with ANOTHER lonely pink line. I'll give it another day or two... or maybe even three. In other words, I'll wait until I am definitely late!

It's pretty crazy how much herbs we are consuming- we literally go through a bottle of pills each every 10 days!  We have also been pretty diligent about getting our acupuncture appointments in every week.Two weeks ago he actually attached electrodes to the needles, so it was kind of like getting my ovaries electrocuted for 45 minutes!

Anyway, I'm tentatively keeping my fingers crossed... I'll let you know what happens!