The First Step..

We are finally making progress! We moved back to Cali, got our insurance sorted out, and last week went to our first appointment with a fertility specialist! I do have to say, finding myself at a fertility clinic at 29 is definitely NOT something I would have ever imagined! Anyway...We were asked every personal question in the book about our sex lives, my period etc., and I have determined that the doctor now knows more about our private lives than even our closest confidants!

I got a very thorough exam, including an internal ultrasound.. It was pretty surreal to see the sonogram, with my name on it, and I immediately began imagining some future date when there would be a heart beating on the screen, instead of just an empty uterus. Turns out everything looks good on my end, follicles and all. I was told that I could go and get another test where they put a catheter up my cervix into my uterus, and fill it with purple dye, then x-ray it to see if my follicles are open..... I decided not to do it, as if we are going to do ICSI, it really does not matter if they are open or not! On a side note, my husband was in the room as the doctor had his hand in my crotch, and examined my boobs- when we left and I jokingly asked him if it was weird for him, all he could say was "A WHOOOOLE new level!" Funny how he just got to sit there the whole time while I was poked and prodded, when HE is the one with the problem! But I know this is only the beginning!

My husband was told to go get another semen analysis, and Kreuger analysis (kill the sperm and analyze it), which he did this past Monday- I must say I am really glad that I am not a guy- I am not sure how I would feel about walking in to the lab and handing off a cup of my sperm! We both also got LOTS of blood drawn to check for STD's etc. etc.

We have a doctors appointment next week to go over all the results, and discuss the "next step". I am pretty exited to finally be getting things moving, and am determined to have a positive attitude, and see this as one big adventure! I'll keep you posted!

In A Nutshell

So, in a nutshell, here is what has happened in the past two years....
Our move across the country for my hubby's job was quite uneventful in the baby department.

There we were, renting this huge 4 bedroom house in anticipation of filling it with kids before moving back to the west coast, wondering each month what we were doing wrong, as my monthly visitor showed up cheerfully every month, and wondered why I was no longer happy to see her!

After six months I resentfully got a job- I had been holding off in my determination to get pregnant, as I my plan was to be stay at home mom until moving back to California- they could be old enough to go to preschool, and I would go back to work! Perfect huh? Yeah, we thought so too...

After a year and a bit, I sent my husband off to the doctor, as we had determined that there must be a problem, and I was determined that it wasn't me! Well turns out I was right, my hubby's "boys" had abnormal heads- ALL of them! Everything else was normal, so pretty much, there were lots of them, they could swim, but once the got to the egg, they could not get in. So essentially the doctor told him that ICSI would be the only real option (it's like IVF, but they go the extra step, and actually inject the sperm into the egg). Of course it's more expensive than IVF too!

So, long story short, a few months later, his company offered to bring him back to Cali early for another job, and we jumped at the chance. Sadly, we said goodbye to our big beautiful house that we never got to fill with kids....